I haven't updated on here in a while! So the guy I was talking about previously, well he and I are now official. I really do like him. I'm just hoping our relationship will continue to be good. I think the only think he wouldn't like about me is that well, I'm not one to have sex instantly. I'm a really shy person and it's hard enough for me to get close to him on my own without him making the first move. Eventually, we may end up having sex. ( I know it's a very unchristian-like thing to say) I'm still a virgin and very innocent. I'm a BIG challenge, that's for sure. This is just what I see and feel. We have been official for approximately a month now and he usually has sex in the beginning of a relationship. He knows about my morals and that he will need lots of patience before we even come close to being on that level of intimacy. All I know is that I just don't want our relationship to fail like most relationships do. I guess time reveals all.

Sorry, I haven't posted in a little while but I'm going to school, going to work, and now I'm kind of dating this guy Brandon. We talk every night on the phone and we went on one official date and just hung out yesterday for 3 and a half hours. Then, after hanging out he called me right after that. I like him, but I'm thinking he might like me a bit more. I just feel he is focusing on me a lot, and I have never liked to be the center of attention, you know? I'm sure most girls want this. You know, a guy that always calls and tells you that you're beautiful? A guy that loves to have conversations all the time with you? I'm flattered, but I just don't know right now. Maybe it's the age difference. I'm 17 and he's 21.  I think he's getting to the point where he's looking to settle down more, where as I still have a lot of places to go. Well, his last relationship was 5 and a half years! Hum, all I know is that he is a good, intelligent guy and I have yet to connect with someone so easily. So, I'm not going to ruin anything that's coming.

Alicia

Today was pretty decent, but it was basically a repeat of yesterday. I ran into Tiffany during lunch. It was nice to see her again. I just got back home from Prosser. I walked this time considering my house is practically right by it! I additionally took a walk to Subway and some random guy yelled, "Girl!" Then, a worker waved at me. I looked the other direction. Guys are dogs, seriously. It was so hot outside today I don't know how I even bared to walk home. I was in black pants and a long-sleeved shirt. Talk about hot! I could use some serious air conditioning right about now. *Sigh* The really cute guy in my English class moved across the room! Gosh, I think he's adorable. He has long hair, too. I love that. Prehaps it reminds me of a hippie, and we all know that I'm a hippie chick at heart. *wink* Hum, well in Prosser today we filled out a lot of information about ourselves and discussed them among our classmates. One sheet was a fill-in-the-black type thing and it was "People think you are________." The teacher asked what I put and I said people usually think I'm introverted. She was like, "They're wrong." I guess I talk a little more than usual in that class and that's suprising since everyone is so new to me there. Most are from Floyd Central and random schools I haven't even heard of. Another question was something like "If you could take a picture with an animal at the zoo, what would the animal be?"  I'm the only person in that class that choose an owl. lol I think I'm such an odd ball. Awe, I saw Maximma today. It was so cool to see her. Also, that book is gaining my interest more than ever. Until later, Alicia

Last night I hung out with Caitlin and we played tennis along with her mother and younger brother. It was pretty fun, I suppose. I'm really nervous about school starting tomorrow, considering my schedule is completely messed up. At first I wasn't worried until I found out my schedule didn't include choir. Now I'm worried about who I'm going to eat lunch with and who will be in my classes. I just feel really stressed right now. *runs away and hides in a corner* I hate feeling stressed. I'm also scared of what I will do after I complete this school year because I'm a senior now. Gosh, stress stress stress. I'll update later.

Alicia

*Thanks for all the kind comments everyone!*

Last night *my friend* and I spied on *her boyfriend* and he's suspicious! We stood outside his apartment door listening for a girl's voice around midnight last night. We had no luck, though, he acted like he was hiding something. It may not be the best thing to spy, but a girl has to do what a girl has to do, ok?! lol

Oh, I'm going to activate my credit card today and deposit a hundred dollars into my account.

Okay, I didn't realize that I had to register for Prossor (The School of Technology) today until my friend Heather informed me about it last night. So I just called work and told them I'd be an hour late because of registration. I was just going to call in saying something like, "I'm so sick. Can't make it in today. I'm so sorry!" lol Some advice was given to so I decided to tell them the truth. It worked so maybe honesty is the best policy. Who knew?  The manager just told me not to come in and that they'd be fine working today. Hum, that's a good thing and a bad thing, I believe. I don't want them to think I'm unreliable. I know I'm not the most organized person in the world, but I like to do things and be on time. This is my first day of missing so I think it'll be okay. I kind of wanted to come in today for some reason, though.

You know, I had the weirdest dream. There were these two men that wanted our land. So usually they devised plans to make us get up and leave the land to them. We (my family and I) were not moving an inch. There was a picture on the wall of Jesus and Jesus "told me" that they were pouring cement in our house. Turns out, they were and we got it just in time. It was mixed with water and overflowing our carpets. A few seconds after Jesus told me that, I went outside and saw the two men. I exchanged some really bad cuss words with them and attempted (keyword:attempted) to write down their license plates with no luck. Then I walked on over to a Walgreens and I met this really cute guy and don't ask what happened after that. Weird dreams. Weird dreams.

I'll update later.

Alicia

Hey, I'm writing again because I'm a complete dork and I have nothing else to do with my life. lol Right now I'm feeling really fat, which explains all the candy and chips I just absorbed. When I get this treadmill, I'm really going to turn my diet around. I'm trying my best to make that promise to myself. I'm tired of feeling fat and unhealthy.  Tomorrow I'm going to activate my credit card so I can buy it online and I will make a change. I need some prayers, though.

Well, I just got back from church today and it's been the first day I really haven't cried tons in church. I'm not sure if that's a sign that I'm drawing away from God. Sometimes I have these moments and I think, "I need him overall, but I'm not sure if I do now." I hate feeling that I don't need God. When things are going well I don't really give God much credit and that's a problem.

Alicia

*Okay, first of all..why is it that people type with boxes in their journals?  How can anyone read it, or how can they read it?* Sorry, I just don't understand that.

Sigh, I just read part of the Indiana paper and several birds here (in Indiana) have been infected with the West Nile Virus. This is disturbing.

I've been reading this books titled "The Power of Praying Together" by Omartian, Stormie  with Hayford, Jack W. It's a really decent book that I bought at Meijer not long ago. I've been reading a little everynight and a lot of the statements she converses about definitely describes where I was at one particular time in my life. She additionally told about how she was also into the "darker things" and how her life was going downhill from there. It's like a breath of fresh air for me because I can see how someone can go from no faith to walking in the Lord. It inspires me somehow; it gives me hope.

Anyway, I'm thinking about buying a treadmill. The diet I've been doing (which isn't really a diet) isn't helping me lose the pounds I need to. I'm only going to get one that is a hundred dollars and I feel it will help me eat healthier. So, it's a good thing. I know I'll be thinking, " I just ran for an hour so I'm going to resist this donut." Well, I hope I'll be thinking that, though, I'm a sucker for rasinets.

Until Another Time,

Alicia

Welcome to my journal and thanks for visiting! Today wasn't the most interesting, but work was definitely busier than ever. I'm thankful April helped me along once again. Although she seems very mean and tough, she can be kind and encouraging. I really do appreciate someone who is willing to help out with thinking about themselves only. It definitely demonstrates how much character a person has. I'm always willing to go the extra mile for someone without expecting anything in return, and it's just suprising to see someone helping me for a change. Things such as that really help brighten my day. For that, I am grateful.

Blessings,

Alicia